“As for me, I will be vindicated and will see your face; when I awake, I will be satisfied with seeing your likeness.”
Psalm 17:15

These past 2 weeks have been down weeks for me, and when I say down, I do mean down. Not your average “it’s exam week” or “oh it’s that time of the month” down, but it’s so far down that the stress is actually causing me to miss that time of the month! Sure, it is exam week, but I’m a junior in college, I’m used to this by now. But instead, it’s like every little thing that could possibly get to me is actually getting to me, and in the end, I’m just so overwhelmed and stressed out that I’m not motivated to do anything anymore.

Needless to say, anything included my quiet time, which I have missed for quite a while now. It’s ironic how in the end, no matter how much I’m unwilling to admit, I still crawl back to God because I need him. So I finally opened my bible and read Psalm 17. Not much enlightenment at first, until I read verse 14 and 15.

In v14, David describes his enemies as those who find their reward in this life and world. But in v15, he contrasts himself with them, saying that his satisfaction is in seeing God’s likeness. What a revelation! All this time, I’ve been trying to find my rewards from this world, and needless to say, disappointed each time. This strive to find satisfaction from this life, instead of from God, is the exact reason for my stress. And it shouldn’t be just about needing His presence, but desiring His presence, thirsting for it in your life. Perhaps others can find happiness from things of this world, but as for me, I shall be like David, and be satisfied with seeing God’s likeness.