I’m in a relationship that I know is unhealthy and detrimental. I also know that with how things are, things will never work out and that he IS not the one for me. I have all the excuses in the world to end things with him, but I continue to find excuses for myself to hang on to what is left of our relationship in hope that things will change for the better.

Yet the truth is, no matter what I do, I cannot change him, and he cannot change me. We have such different values and lifestyles that it would be impossible to stay together unless one of us compromises. However, I can’t compromise my promise to God for him, or anyone else for that matter.

As much as I love him and hate to end things, because I know it’ll hurt so much, I really don’t know what to do. If I continue to keep things the way it is, I’m just going to sink in deeper and deeper, until one day, it will kill me. The stress from this relationship is already eating away at me bit by bit, and it’s only time before I completely crack and falter under pressure.

Yet I know that God will not give me anything more than I can handle. So with His strength and grace, I believe that one day I will move on. Regardless of what happens in the future, one thing I’m certain of is that if I never let go of God, He will carry me through.

Away from me, you evildoers, that I may keep the commands of my God!
Sustain me according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed.
Uphold me, and I will be delivered; I will always have regard for your decrees.
Psalm 119:115-117